7 July 2002: The self has found itself

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The newborn chaos creates anxiety in the dark

The forces that want to have dominion over the entire universe feel their power is weakening. Göran survives something seemingly impossible, as witnesses look on.

—– ooOO – OOoo —–

 

They have been searching, seeking, looking for it again and again. They have been searching everywhere, thinking about this unbearable thing they cannot find. For them it is unbearable – but not for others. For others it is something else.

They have expanded their search to countless galaxies only to discover along the way that they are not even sure that which they are looking for exists at all.

But deepest down they feel something is weakening their mind.

Are we not masters of the universe?

What could be greater than we?

They continue their exploration to new galaxies using the grid system that they have divided the universe into.

Many times they stumble across the simplest and this they have scornfully passed over. They have not recognized that which is the object of their greatest interest.

Their goal is right in front of them, and yet they are totally blind to it.

A long, long time has passed and still they continue to search new planetary systems, age after age. Perhaps it is from this that unbearable competition arises?

They search quadrant after quadrant. Somehow, souls vanish from the prisons they establish. Somehow, recruitment on all the planets they visit is becoming less successful.

What is going on? And what and who started this?

Nothing can surely be stronger than we are?

They are becoming more and more frustrated and even wilder. They do not know and do not understand what has begun. The chaos has already started, but is only in its infancy.

I myself, the one writing this, I think that that it is something like this. And if it is so, it could be that the self has found itself.

 

—– ooOO – OOoo —–

 

Once in my youth, I saw a vision that I did not understand. Maybe I’ve written about it before, I do not remember. I’ll try to recall as best I can. I was on a long mountain plateau, in the middle of summer. I was going to take on a challenge. I do not know what exactly. Lots of people were with me. I was totally naked and had nothing with me. These people left me up there in the mountains for a year to come back to see if I had the power and energy to survive. They left me, and I walked down into a valley alone.

A year passed and it became summer again. All the people came back to the site. They had almost no hope of ever seeing me again. No one can pull this off, it had never been done before.

They all stood there and looked down in the direction I had gone the previous summer. They looked down the valley. They were so busy that they did not notice me, when I came from the other direction.

I stood there a long time looking at their backs and wondering if any of them would turn around and discover me.

But no. I spoke to them: “Here I am!”

The people became almost paralyzed with wonder and fear. They could not have imagined in their wildest dreams that someone could come from that side, the other side.

They did not know how to behave. What is this?

They could not understand how anyone could work on themselves, to be able to give everything that was inside, to find something that is the simplest of the simple.

I stood there and loved them more than they’d ever been loved. They did not know that they had helped me in the way they had.

If no one had come to see if I had managed this year, they would not have believed that anyone could do it. That they were amazed and afraid that I survived, I can understand that.

There was something impossible that had happened. But it had happened.

 

—– ooOO – OOoo —–

 

I was out walking in the woods. With me was a woman with a child.

We were coming back from a walk. We arrived at a very narrow road, no more than a meter wide. It was very long and it went uphill and downhill.

We started to go home. I knew that this road went straight to my home.

When we had come a little of the way the woman went to the side of the road and into the woods. I followed after to see how it was going for her, but they had already disappeared. I went back to the narrow road and continued on my way.

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“They have expanded their search to countless galaxies only to discover
along the way that they are not even sure that which they are looking for
exists at all” 

 

 

 

 

“Many times
they stumble across
the simplest and this they have scornfully passed over. They have not recognized that which is the object of their greatest interest.”

 

 

 

 

“The chaos has already started, but is only in its infancy.”  

 

 

 

 

“And if it is so, it could be that the self has found itself.”

 

 

 

 

“They could not have imagined in their wildest dreams that someone could come from that side, the other side.”

 

 

 

 

“They could
not understand how anyone could work on themselves,
to be able to give everything that
was inside, to find something that
is the simplest
of the simple.”