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I sat in my room in an armchair and fell asleep. Something quite extraordinary happened. It was one of the most powerful experiences of my life. I fell asleep as I said, and knew that I was still sitting in the armchair. I saw something about three meters in front of me. I know that what I saw was something a human had never before seen. I tried with all my strength to get up and take hold of or walk towards this item. I felt a tremendous force in my body, it was definitely not human.

But I could not budge.

Something, I perceived it as a lot of people, although it was not so, clung to my legs and arms, yes, my whole body. I was thus shackled down.

I know that if I had been able to get up I would have left my body and been a dead man.

There is no doubt about that. The strength was as I said, inhuman. It was so incredible that such a thing cannot be imagined. I woke up suddenly with my left foot incessantly banging the floor. After this experience, I understand more what has been and what will come in the future. There is more to write about, but it is so difficult. It is in Jorun’s book.

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I saw a giant swing. On this swing sat a man with a woman on his lap. The woman in turn had a little boy on her lap. The entire scene seemed very harmonious.

I fell asleep after dinner in my armchair. I went somewhere and received: “Two-thirds of China put under water.”

I saw also an extraordinary heat develop.

I also saw clearly a great throne, maybe two or three meters high. Someone, I do not know who or what, was sitting in it. Water was sprayed up on the sides. The picture said to me:

“You can be absolutely sure. Trust me as I trust you.”

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During a conversation with a few friends something came up that woke me up. I understood some of what it is all about.

Over eons of time you, Amper, have accompanied me on many planets. I am you and you are me.

Thousands of creatures in lots of civilizations during this period have been created so that someone, somewhere, would be born who could understand you. Maybe not understand with their intellect, but understand with their heart. It feels now as if this goal is within sight. The journey is the goal, and the trip has been really long, it feels, so anyway.

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After my rounds this morning I saw very clear picture: A cave opening where small white stars ran out of one side. They resembled stars anyway; silvery, white little things that felt completely clean. Was it life that was born, purified?

When I started to walk in my tunnels, I went in slightly different ways. A dream told me that I would first go with all who left today, and left a long time ago, and with the plants and animals that left. Thereafter, once more when everything is born again. Could it be that those that left are born again? If not, why should I do it in that order? It can be so. A lightning fast change. If time does not exist, then it is true.

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I was somewhere on vacation or something similar. I believe someone else was with me. I was staying in two places, a house on the ground plus an apartment high up in a building. There was a roof terrace upstairs.

When I came to this place, I set up a cable from the roof terrace to something that was high up in the air, to something antenna-like. I had attached the cable carefully.

This holiday, or whatever it was, was over and I was about to leave. I began to remove the cable but realized that it could be used by someone else or by myself in the future. It was the last day I stayed in these two places. There was a multitude of small gadgets to disassemble and put into boxes.

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I woke up in the middle of the night, had dreamt as usual. I stood in front of a deep well where a triangular stone had got stuck in it. No one could get at the water under the stone. It was hermetically fixed and I stood there thinking about how to solve it. I do not know how it ended, but I think I finally managed it after a great deal of thinking and feeling.

Jag vaknade mitt i natten, hade drömt som vanligt. Jag stod framför en djup brunn där en trekantig sten satt fast. Ingen kunde komma åt vattnet under stenen. Det satt hermetiskt fast och jag stod där och funderade hur jag skulle lösa detta. Vet inte hur det slutade men jag har för mig att jag till slut klarade av det efter stor tankemöda och känsla.

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A truck drove up laden with a multitude of chickens. I do not know if they were alive or not. There was something not quite right with them. The driver wanted me to buy these chickens. It felt like an advance payment had been made on them. I was a little hesitant about the whole thing.

Yesterday morning I went wrong in my thoughts. I usually take those with me who have left long ago only in the evening. But this morning I took them by mistake. Maybe it was not a mistake, but I really should do it that way. Yes, the future will surely show what was right.

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I was on the other side. Just as I have seen it many times.

Some were painting paintings only to destroy them and paint them again. Others built something up and then destroyed it. Some threw things on the floor and then picked them up. It was eternal work for these poor wretches.

They were apathetic and listless without interest for or in the future, everything was totally meaningless.

I will try harder to help them. I will do everything I can for these lost souls. Maybe they can pull themselves up and understand where they are and maybe do something about it.

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I sat in my room in the morning. I went into a kind of trance. I saw Sweden, from the north of the county of Bohuslän diagonally upwards towards the Stockholm area to be under water. I thought I saw also that the coast of Norrland had moved about 50 kilometers inland. I’m not completely sure about that last one. 

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I was driving a truck or van with myself and many, many children in it. We were going to my work and I was in a hurry. I was a senior scientist. I perceived that my work was somehow connected with nuclear power.

In my hands I had paper cups. I filled them with something sweet, it tasted like honey or nectar. I gave all the children their own mug with this drink in it.

The children firmly believed in me, they gave me their trust. I discovered that I could think like the children. I was somehow one with them. They were in my head and I was in theirs.

Only those who have countless times walked with me in the light and in my tunnels can understand this.

Understand my words and understand my thoughts. Understand how much I love them.

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A girl with shoulder length blonde hair fell from the third or fourth floor. Myself, I stood where she fell. I do not know if I caught her in my arms, or what, the girl was at least unhurt.

The mother, who had the same hair that the girl came running and took the girl in her arms. She was full of wonder over what had happened.

– What was it that saved her? she asked. I answered that which saved her maybe is right next to you, perhaps standing in front of you.

Not even those in reality know. They thought they knew, but that is not the case. I understand this now.

The woman was Ona and the child Chreel. Yes, it is as it is. I understand that too.

My other self told me in spring 1999: “You go first, we will follow you and protect you.” Further, he also said: “You are my creator.”

I protested in the highest degree but see it in a completely different way now.

Not my human body but the other self. The one that does his rounds morning and evening and walks in the night.

The one who is back in the morning to have breakfast with Chreel. Who in a woken state leaves that car and does what he can here in my life. It’s just so that I’m so very alone, alone in my whole being. No one understands me. I have tried but I just hit a brick wall, always.

But I understand that no one else can understand. How could they?

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“I know that if I had been able to get up I would have left my body and been a dead man.”  

“Two-thirds of China put under water.” 

“Thousands of creatures in lots of civilizations during this period have been created so that someone, somewhere, would be born who could understand you.”  

“A dream told me that I would first go with all who left today, and left a long time ago, and with the plants and animals that left.”  

“I saw Sweden, from the north of the county of Bohuslän diagonally upwards towards the Stockholm area to be under water.”

“Not even those in reality know. They thought they knew, but that is not the case.”  

“Not my human body but the other self. The one that does his rounds morning and evening and walks in the night.”  

“It’s just so that I’m so very alone, alone in my whole being. No one understands me.”