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It is difficult to accuse someone of a crime when that someone behind the crime cannot be reached. The offense as such has been committed but the real culprit cannot be brought to justice in our human, mortal world.

The one who really perpetrated this crime cannot be seen, heard or perceived by man. This then, in the most difficult of situations. The only option is that darkness must get to destroy itself.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

I stood looking out over the water. A man came riding along on a jet ski. When he was just in front of me he disappeared into the water and then came right back up. Another man came and the same thing happened. They were only away for a second, but they were really gone.

I think I understand this. It has probably something to do with my rounds.

People walk over to the other side and I go with them, they are there only a short time until I go with them again, but now to be born. They are not gone a long while. I now understand why it is and was so important when, and in what order, they get cared for. I think this is so in any case.

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I found myself at a railway station. I did not see what track my train should leave from. I looked but could not find it. There were lots of people on the platform. The train was going towards the coast.

As I was standing on the platform a very peculiar locomotive, with equally strange carriages, came into the station. This train was totally unlike anything I’ve ever seen.

I also helped an elderly lady with something. I carried her bags or maybe I was just there with her.

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Rarely do I experience something like this. It is very difficult to put it into words.

It was in any case to do with Chreel. I saw her but did not know it was her. There was an enormous power, greater than I can imagine. It was not like Chreel’s body, but it was her. It seemed that she was transformed, as if she was not Chreel any longer, the one I know.

She was somewhere else, but still here. She complemented me in every way. We walked together, maybe not always here, but always there. The life we live here and now is nothing compared to the other, there. What we really are.

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I got a load of letters, all mixed up hurly-burly with several newspapers. I remarked to Chreel that it was Sunday and yet I still got mail. Half the floor of the hall was covered with letters in various formats and all were addressed to me.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

I was up on the roof of a larger house which I myself was building. Many others around had completed their houses long ago. I know they had talked about me far and wide, that I was never getting my house finished and why it took me so long.

But now I was finally ready. For the first time ever, I had managed to complete this building that I had been working on for such a long time.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

All the time, at all times and in all frequencies, another man has been helping me.

Sometimes I was his helper and sometimes he was mine. It seems as if this work has been going on for immeasurable periods of time and yet it is only happening now.

––––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

13 september

I stood on a stage. The curtain was closed, I stood alone behind it. I know that there were others farther back on stage. I knew about them, but saw them not.

I pulled the curtain slightly to one side in the middle to see if anyone was outside. I have never before seen so many in one place. There must have been millions of creatures there.

They radiated a kind of expectation or hope. The curtain was going to be removed so that they could see me. I know that I was going to talk to them, maybe I know about what.

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“The only option is that darkness must get to destroy itself.”  

“People walk over to the other side and I go with them, they are there only a short time until I go with them again, but now to be born.”  

“The life we live here and now is nothing compared to the other, there. What we really are.”  

“It seems as if this work has been going on for immeasurable periods of time and yet it is only happening now.”