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I was sitting in the recliner in the garden. It was hot in the sun and I fell asleep for a while.

I saw a man who had very much to attend to, he was in a hurry. He was invisible to people and worked hard, did not take a break. The strange thing about this was that the man was myself, though in a different form, a different guise.

I understand so well who it really was. This has been with me since August 1990.

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I went to a construction project meeting with another man. The other was probably myself.

I told him that the client and the contractor are actually the same. They help each other all the time, yes, all the time. The same power and the same person.

After this realization that I had I feel strengthened almost all the time.

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Yesterday much got clarified that I did not understand before. What is illusion and what is reality is now totally clear to me. That was how things were. This has been in front of me for years, but I have not really grasped it until yesterday. Much has now fallen into place that before was just floating loose.

One of the key pieces of the puzzle has been put down. That you said we are you and you are we is now so clear to me. I say again, that it was so.

Chreel has helped me so much for so long. I can’t understand how she put up with it, how she had the strength.

How I understand it is, the final answers came to me during the last few days.

The final answers during this era.

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I felt tired and tried to sleep for a while this afternoon. I lay on my bed, and slept for maybe three minutes. I was far, far away, high up somewhere. Many people were in a large room. I saw that they had different kinds of video tapes.

They wanted to show me that all my thoughts somehow come to this center.

I had not understood this before and I understand so well, so well that had I understood it this experiment could not have been carried out. So I had to be unaware of this until now.

I strongly believe that I have managed things that previously had not been possible.

All of this unimaginable journey since the very beginning, these countless failures in many worlds. I can  neither apologize for what has been.

I myself think that it has been extremely difficult to arrive where I now am. I know that much remains, and I know this as much as you, now I do.

What can one say? I have never worked in this systematic way before. But you know, one in a billion. That’s how it is.

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Last night when I got into the air and the atmosphere, I must have nodded off in my bed.

It was probably just for a minute. In this state I saw something I had never seen before. It was like bright purple tongues, thicker at the base and then tapering off. These tongues were intertwined. They were not like a regular braids but in a different way.

They possessed a power and energy that for us humans is unimaginable. It was a completely different dimension or frequency. I can not describe it in words. I was myself a part of this energy.

I now understand fully what I’m doing. I understand the magnitude, and understand that what I do is necessary for the survival of mankind. As I previously wrote, humanity will be big trouble, but ultimately it will sort itself out.

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I called someone to pick up some goods. I was driving a large covered truck. I arrived at the destination, there were obstacles on the road here and there. I stopped where a doctor had his practice. There was a warehouse, with many packages on pallets. A young man and his father were in charge of the depot or warehouse. Even the delivery note was at hand. I only saw the sum, maybe it was 3150? I realized that this was true. I then loaded these pallets onto my truck. I was going to deliver them to where they belonged.

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I came to a place where a large factory was to be built. A man was there who gave me a really nice sandwich with all sorts of good things on it. He told me that they were waiting for a man who had absolute discretionary power to determine whether the factory would be built or not. It felt like this was the way this person made their living. I saw, too, lots of eggs on the ground when I walked away.

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I dreamed, and I knew I was dreaming. I went to a “lift” with shiny big doors where there were many people. The strange thing was that the elevator went horizontally.

Then the picture changed, the lift turned into a train that went in pure air. Many onboard had travelled far. The whole time we traveled at breathtaking speed. I heard at the beginning of the journey a voice from the speakers which said: “You have paid the ticket, Jorun so everything is good.”

Someone next to me said: “What was that, do you know the driver?”

A man close to me asked what I was interested in.

I replied: “My interest is one thing and think of every second of my life.”

I found out that the train would stop at an airplane that would leave for far away.

I asked someone if the train stopped at the plane or if it went directly into the plane. I was told that it stopped outside the plane. It was apparently so that no one ever got off.

Everyone always continued on, so was the response. I know that I at least got off. I did not get on the plane.

I also thought during the journey that I back home I have become a missing person.

I think I now understand something new. What we sometimes think about or think of doing is in some ways a reality even before get started with it.

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“The strange thing about this was that the man was myself, though in a different form, a different guise”  

“What is illusion and what is reality is now totally clear to me.”

“They wanted to show me that all my thoughts somehow come to this center”

“All of this unimaginable journey since the very beginning, these countless failures in many worlds”  

“I understand the magnitude, and understand that what I do is necessary for the survival of mankind”  

“What we sometimes think about or think of doing is in some ways a reality even before get started with it.”