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I was out on the ice fishing with my father. Even my mother was in the picture. First, we went far out, I think we were on the sea and then we went close to land.  I made a big hole in the ice.

I dropped the lure and it got caught in something, I pulled and pulled at the line, but it sat hopelessly stuck.

“Why did you make such a large hole near land?” my father asked.

I answered him that he himself had fished in this hole. Anyway, my mother grabbed the line and sorted the whole situation out. I seem to remember that even my father got caught up in what the line was caught on at the bottom.

There was also a house nearby. A man came out.

“Something happened out there in the world,” he said.

He had received a telephone message that the Olympics, the Olympic Games, was canceled.  Many had been working on this to no avail.

The man was not so tall, very thin and was wearing a shiny blue jumpsuit. He was entirely contained in this suit. I soon felt confidence in him. I saw fishing gear, nets and hooks and various other things used for fishing. He also gave me a big flounder.

Yes, what was this? First of all, my father and I are the same person.

The fact that I got stuck so badly, this tells me I am thinking about something wrong or there is something more I should do. Or something I, for some reason have missed. I think I will work out what it is.

This man with the overall or tracksuit, who was he? I know for sure who it was. He came from afar. It felt also that he was a part of myself.

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Amper (always in italics): – Everything is as it should be, Jorun. You were quite right concerning your apartment. You cannot do otherwise. You know you will not be there for long as you also know what comes next. Just take it easy, everything is and will be as you want it.

Goran / Jorun: – What was with the Olympics?

– The answer will come. It is not an amusing answer, but it is what it is.

–  The man in the overalls?

– You know who it was. You have much help around you, I know you understand.

– When will they come? You know what I am thinking of.

No answer.

– Anything else I should do?
– No Jorun, you do so much. If you understood a tenth, you would be amazed. Remember that the entire universe is talking about you. Keep in mind that because of you, everything has changed, changed utterly. Remember that never ever has there been anything like it. That this, no one thought was possible. Yet here it is. There is such gratitude to you for this. You, the simplest of all, working around the clock for everyone else. He who sometimes cares too little about himself. But that’s how you are.

… hard to write this last bit. I can console myself with that which I write, I get from my other self.

– Jorun, I love you with all my heart.

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“The fact that I got stuck so badly, this tells me I am thinking about something wrong or there is something more I should do.”  

“… hard to write this last bit. I can console myself with that which I write, I get from my other self.”