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I got a huge response on my rounds. It had to do with Nanthes and me.

It felt as if he and I were the same existence. I’ve been thinking about this all these years, now I got the answer. Maybe it’s lucky I didn’t have all the answers earlier. I get them when I reached the point where I can handle them.

I think Nanthes was about seven years old when he died. Since then, throughout 2000 years, he was waiting for what is happening now. The conditions for adoption, as you said Amper, have not been right until now. I think this is the case, or something like that.

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I was heading into a large forest, I do not know how old I was. I had a long fishing pole with me, and a landing net on the end. It was the middle of the night and almost dark outside. I was off to a small body of water that had almost no water in it. I thought it was a little muddy, sank the net into the water, I did not know if I would catch anything, I kept it in for a long time.

I thought I heard something and stood completely still. I glimpsed two men in the woods, I did not know if they were after me. They did not see me.

One said to the other that “it was probably a ten year old, what could he do.” As I said, they did not see me in the dark.

I had walked a long time to reach this place. I started to walk back, still with the pole and net in my hands.

It was now dawning, not quite light yet, I came to a farm where a man was collecting hay in a field, it was that time of year.

A female wolf with two pups appeared. I waved the pole about and the line flew around in the air. It was not to hurt her, it was like a game.

In the meantime, the puppies ran around and played. This female wolf had a very big mouth with long sharp teeth. But, she was desperate not to hurt me. There, the dream faded away.

––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

I’ve been thinking about this dream a lot today. It is the second time animals with sharp teeth have appeared in a dream. Both even had huge jaws. They have also shown me great love, they have somehow let me be.

Could it be that they, against all odds, have been hit by love wherever they are?

––– ooOO – OOoo –––––

Today in the morning during my rounds, I am convinced someone was here. I had a strong sense of presence. I got nervous and faltered several times, I had to go back and repeat sometimes and I do not know what. Was it the creator himself who was listening in?

I have not felt this way before, not in this way. It was not unpleasant, but, as I said, I was nervous. I know it makes no real difference, but in any case.

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“I think Nanthes was about seven years old when he died. Since then, throughout 2000 years, he was waiting for what is happening now.”  

“Could it be that they, against all odds, have been hit by love wherever they are?”  

“Was it the creator himself who was listening in?”