20 and 27 April 2012: I know

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A long trip coming to an end

I dream I am almost home from a long fishing trip. Nothing should go wrong. It’s been difficult to get started with the writing. I realize I don’t need to ask Amper so much. I know the answers in myself.

 

 

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20 April

I visited two relatives of mine and I seem to remember that a woman was there with me too, I do not know who.

There were lots of dishes on the sink, and I had trouble finding the detergent. I think it all got washed up anyway.

I was going to go and get a key from a woman and leave. There were road works holding the traffic up, but I got through anyway.

I asked directions from a woman along on the road. It was a bit of a winding road but I arrived. I got the key and some sliced meats from the woman. She came from up north.

I also think that a man who told a funny story was there.

 

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I had a crossword in A4 format in front of me. There were four or five horizontal lines that were yellow, but nothing was written there. I think part of the crossword was completed.

I do not know what it is with me. It is as if I am afraid for what I will write. There’s nothing stopping me after all. It is not so easy sometimes to understand yourself. I guess I will get going in earnest. There is no other choice.

 

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27 April

A friend and I had been out fishing. It had been a long fishing trip, over many, many years, but now we were almost home. There was only a small bit of the journey left. We came to a kind of outdoor restaurant, there lots of different people there.

We had cold coffee which we warmed up, and we sat down at a table farthest away. There were also children nearby. We did not want in any way to show ourselves or let people get close to us.

We had had such a long fishing trip, now nothing should go wrong on the last stretch.

We were in total agreement about the smallest things.

I have over the years understood my friend’s importance. I got to know who he was early on.

It feels like the last leg is going well. I will arrive home with an assignment completed. I have written many times “does it ever end?” I now understand that there is no end, barely a beginning, it’s all one now. Had my rounds not worked, nothing had ever existed. The Creator would never have found himself.

 

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Goran / Jorun: – I am calling you, my other self.

Amper (italics): Jorun, I am here.

– I’ve just reviewed what has been written about you. I’ve probably found most of it. What do you think, Amper?

– It would be good if you do that you have thought of doing this evening.

– I do not want to go too hard at you. I myself have not been half as good as you. You have to forgive and forget what has been to be able to deal with the present.  It will be easier to write after the first things are completed. It will be easier to follow the writings as best I can after that. I sometimes feel a bit lonely, it’s better when I’m talking to you.

– I recognize this since the old days.

– Is there anything I should be observant about?

– Jorun, you already know everything in your heart. Everything will work out for the best, you understand.

– My friend, I do not know what to ask about.
– Jorun, you do so much, without understanding it. Your thoughts come to us here in what you call reality. They are healthy and completely wonderful.

– I need not be ashamed then?

– Jorun, that’s the last thing you need to be. Understand this: you have gone through the entire universe, you have gone through life, you have gone through what you people call death. You have gone through all that exists. No one else can do this; no one else has ever been close to this. Understand Jorun, you know who you are, we know who you are, the entire universe knows who you are. Everyone loves you more than you can imagine. You are our everything.

– It feels a little better now. I have come to a point where I do not need to ask as I did before, where I asked what I already knew in my bones. I understand and know that in dreams and visions I will get what I want to know.

– Yes, Jorun absolutely right. The contacts we have had have been wonderful – as they will be in the future. If you had known about it you would not have believed it was true. But it is true. You have walked the grassy path that no one has gone before. You are no longer so interested in women, you are who you are, our creator for all time and eternity.

– Is everything all right with Ona, the one I call Chreel?

– Ona / Chreel is always with you in everything. She loves you as much as you love her. You two have fought together since the beginning of time.

– Yes, it’s nice to hear that.  Anything more, my friend? You know that I am ready whatever happens.

– Jorun, what you are talking about is already manifesting in all its divinity, it has been this way for a long time. I also know that you would not want it any other way. We have been very careful that everything becomes as you wish.

– Yes, Amper I am you and you are me for all time. I’m thankful for being able to talk to you now and again. It means such a lot to me.

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“I do not know what it is with me. It is as if I am afraid for what I will write.”  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“It had been a long fishing trip, over many, many years, but now we were almost home.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

” I have written many times “does it ever end?” I now understand that there is no end, barely a beginning, it’s all one now.”  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“You have gone through the entire universe, you have gone through life, you have gone through what you people call death. You have gone through all that exists.”