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25 May

I saw it this morning before my rounds. I was standing outside the notice board on the stairs, there was a message: “Jorun, contact the board.”

Goran / Jorun: – I’m shouting out, calling you, seeking you, my other self.

Amper (always in italics):  – Yes, Jorun, I’m here.

– I got your message.

– Yes, Jorun absolutely right.

– Has something happened or is there something else that has gone wrong or right? It’s been a month since we spoke in this way. I do not want to disturb you, you know that.

– Jorun, everything is good, good to you and good with us here in what you call reality.

– Shall I leave for a while?

– No absolutely not.

– What is the problem? Do I need to understand it for myself?

– Yes Jorun, you do.

I listed a lot of things I might be able to do otherwise. None of the things on the list covered this.

– Is it so that I have to accept who I really am?

– Jorun, now you are right on the button. This is what it is all about. You know so well who you are, you’ve known for years. We here do not understand this. We know that you do not need any credit for what you do and accomplish, not in the slightest. How can that be? You have accepted who you are, I know you know who you are.

– It is not easy trying to understand myself. I wrote long ago that the creator is trying to create his own image. It is enough that something or someone is also higher than both the illusion and the reality that I call you?  Is it that irritates you Amper, my friend?

– Irritating is not the right word but there is something in what you say.

– It’s difficult to put words to it. Sometimes there are none.  Do you remember my meditation in Osby? I saw the big bang. I stood and watched and saw clearly when the blast took place. I realized that, in that I saw it, I must have existed all the time. For all time, I felt that I have always been around, I’ve been amazed and astonished as I am now. I do not understand it myself but accept it as it is.

– I saw the Creator when he came in a dream, fully equipped with all the tools that were needed for my rounds, or we could say the Creator’s rounds. I am infinitely grateful that I got to come back to life again and that I’ve come so far that our planet will not be obliterated. As you know, I have been thinking about this a thousand times. I seem to have understood that there is a force and a power so big and full of love that neither you nor I can touch it. We can just be it the best we can.  I know that I myself, in some way, am this power, a love so great that nothing greater exists.  I can’t get closer to this at the moment. This question is always with me, maybe I’m lucky it is so. If the question did not exist, nothing would exist.

– Amper my other self, have you’ve seen what I have written?

– Yes, Jorun, you never stop surprising us. I understand you more and more now.  My friend, we must try together to get this right.

– Amper, my other self, is there anything I need to do or whatever it is?

– Jorun, everything is you, I’m thankful you exist.

– Chreel?

– She’s here and she is listening to you. She is overwhelmed by your speech. She still cannot understand how you could live with her.

– I say to you Chreel, you do not know yourself who you really are. We have been together from the beginning, the beginning which still exists, and is here and now.

– Amper, this was a long conversation once it got started. I am not so easy to deal with always. Now the board knows where I stand. I think I stand with one foot in the one and the other foot in the other. It’s like in the elevator once, had Chreel not grabbed me, I would not be here to write this. I was a bit quick at the time, a little too quick. But it went well.

– Yes, it never ends.

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26 May

It never ends. By this, what I mean is that what I call reality is a form of governance. They are not, however, alone. There is also another board that no-one living in the illusion or what I call reality has ever seen or understood how it exists. I’m almost sure that it is so, I think I have understood that for a long time. With their or his approval I have received or am receiving the love that permeates through me.

There may also be a second board that is I myself. First then everything falls into place. That’s not easy to take in. I know that this has come to me more and more lately. The book cannot be published until everything has been approved by myself.

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” I realized that, in that I saw it, I must have existed all the time.”  

“I am infinitely grateful that I got to come back to life again and that I’ve come so far that our planet will not be obliterated.”  

“I seem to have understood that there is a force and a power so big and full of love that neither you nor I can touch it. We can just be it the best we can.”  

“There is also another board that no-one living in the illusion or what I call reality has ever seen or understood how it exists.”