27 November and 16 December 2012: Free

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Finally free and unfettered

Something big will happen in 2027. I feel strong and free.

 

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27 November

Goran / Jorun: – I am shouting out, seeking you and calling you, my other self.

Amper (always in italics):  Yes, Jorun, I’m here and Chreel is too. We here love you with all our might.

– Have you seen what I have written?

– You do not understand what you are doing, you will never understand. But it does not matter. You are who you are all the time.

– There are some things in the book, I do not know if I dare include them.

Jorun, you are doing everything right and you will do everything right.

– What about the two letters that may not be disclosed?

You can write as you did. You know the whole story, that is to say you worked out the origin, that part you may not disclose. You are absolutely right to do it this way.

– I think I can get the writing completed by spring.

Yes, there is no panic. Take all the time you need, everything will be as good as it can be.

– You once said that your big day will be in 2027?

Yes, Jorun, that’s right. That will be our big day, you’ll see what happens.

– Is there anything I should consider?

Jorun, everything is fine, cannot be better. We are here with you all the time in your thoughts.

– Do my thoughts come up on screens anywhere or appear in a similar way?

Yes, Jorun, all is here in what you call reality, every thought you have and every word you say especially during your rounds.   Everyone is fond of you even though you do not see it. You are everything to us here on this side. You cannot understand this because you are who you are. I have said this before, it is not as if you do not want to understand.

 

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I started dreaming immediately after falling asleep.  I was in a big construction site somewhere. It looked awful there, no organization at all. I dealt with it, thinking that it will probably take a long time to get it in order.

I got an appointment, it was for an inspection, everything looked fresh. I came into the building, I think it was two floors. It was clean and nice, with lots of tables where many people sat talkoing. It seemed like a feast or celebration, an opening party.

A woman came in, she was a kind of controller, she was certainly very thorough about the cleaning.

We left together, walking over hills and meadows, I held her hand.  The dream ended abruptly there; I woke up with a start, not at all as I usually do.

 

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16 December

I am in awe. I’m writing in my note book. There are lots of things to write about, I’ve barely come halfway. Every time I sit and write, I feel a strength I did not know existed. With each passing day it becomes stronger, it feels like I’m starting to understand myself in a different way.

I dare now to accept who I really am, I feel so clear about that. No wonder that it took so long. Since childhood I’ve been inculcated with “do not put yourself above others”. It’s hard to go beyond this conditioning, it has taken a long time.

I’m out now, out there where nobody has ever been before. I am infinitely grateful that this happened. No one can stop me now, I will continue on the green straight road that rises slowly upward.  Free at last, free as a bird; without obligation. My blinders were cast off long ago, my eyes opened, I see straight ahead. At the same time I can see all the way backwards though all times which have been and are.

Sometimes I long for you, my other self.

I long for you, my Chreel. Did you hear my feeble call Chreel during my rounds by the stone?

Oh, I’m sure you hear this.

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“Every time I sit and write, I feel a strength I did not know existed.”  

 

 

 

 

 

“Since childhood I’ve been inculcated with ‘do not put yourself above others’. t’s hard to go beyond this conditioning, it has taken a long time.”  

 

 

 

 

“No one can stop me now, I will continue on the green straight road that rises slowly upward. Free at last, free as a bird; without obligation.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

“My blinders were cast off long ago, my eyes opened, I see straight ahead. At the same time I can see all the way backwards though all times which have been and are.”